My Reckoning
We are faced with choices every day, all the time. For many years of my life, I chose to follow my base impulses, good and bad. I grew up lonely and needy. I got out of a toxic family situation by letting fear and disinformation drive me. I moved in the world feeling blind but wanting to understand everything. Along the way, I numbed my pain with drugs and bad relationships I desperately hoped would keep me safe from my unknown self. I worked in a profession that caused me great anxiety but that was better than other options and less scary than following my dreams. I chased people who didn't want my desperate energy, I lived and loved for validation from the external, anything I could find that was outside of me. I prayed for rescue. 3 years ago, I began working with an energy healer who helped me start to turn that long train around. Who was I? Was I worth the effort of drawing breath? Was I worth the effort of untangling myself from all of the complicated relationships that brou...